In case you missed it on Facebook, or haven’t seen the button on the bottom of the page, I just joined a group of bloggers (Triangle Area Bloggers)! I’m now listed in the directory, and pretty super stoked about it. I was processing some things with Josh, like the fact that I was looking into getting my own blog domain. Suddenly, I felt so… lame. A million thoughts flew through my mind… am I trying too hard? I barely have any readers, why would I actually invest money in this? Is this even worth while? These are my thoughts… no, I’m not trying too hard. I don’t feel this way about my crafting, my sewing, my baking, or my cooking. I’m not “trying too hard.” I’m expressing myself, enjoying it, and the blog was for me in the first place! I’m excited to share it all, but I need to remind myself that this blog was for me to enjoy.
I used to think that if I knew something I didn’t have to keep repeating it… like… the Gospel. However, something that I absolutely L-O-V-E about my church is that they repeat it all the time. The Gospel is the reason that we live. I think that’s a good thing to repeat and recount. Maybe it has gotten old to you readers (PS I don’t care- see paragraph above 🙂 ), but I have been rehearsing daily truths, and have greatly benefited from it. (See examples, below.)
I must admit things, because this is a place where I do that. All those wonderful ideas I had painted for Monday night… they just did not happen. We didn’t have enough alfredo for the three of us (I really should have opened that deceptively full container and looked before I made plans), so one of us had alfredo, one of us had sandwiches, and one of us had a quesadilla. I didn’t feel good, sooooo I basically went from watching American Idol on the couch, to watching Grey’s Anatomy in bed. The laundry remained in a pile.
A funny thing happened the other morning. I have a few pairs of pants hanging in the closet, two of which I can currently wear, and two of which I really can’t. Well, on a day I was particularly sleepy and bloaty (go with it, it can be a word) I pulled the wrong size of pants out of the closet…. but I thought I pulled the ones that fit. I WAS SO VERY CONFUSED. Not upset, not distraught, but confused. I figured it out, laughed at myself, and went on with my day. Later, I shared the story with Josh and I could tell, from his response, that he thought I was really beating up on myself. I assured him that I wasn’t. I have gotten such a confidence boost from just eating better, drinking more water, and meeting my step goals. I told him I want to be the healthiest, best version of me… not the skinniest. I have learned, over the past year plus of marriage, that I am really good at taking care of other people… but I am really bad at taking care of myself. I don’t say nice things to myself, I don’t put on nice clothes for fun, I don’t treat my body like it’s worth taking care of. So, that is all stopping. Instead of saying, “I’m not sure I can pull off the chambray today…” I said “you know what? THIS is what I want to wear… and I may think it looks better on so-and-so, but that doesn’t mean I can’t feel good wearing it.”
There are two things I have really been enjoying lately: one is a book and one is a game. The game is Carcassonne. You may recall that I downloaded it for free last week on Kindle! I LOVE IT. It is just so fun to play the game whenever I want, and wherever I want!
Now, I am a self-proclaimed book-worm…. but if I’m honest, it’s been a long time since I have actually finished a book -the last book I read was “Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? (And Other Concerns)” by Mindy Kaling and it was hilarious…. I highly recommend it! I don’t think that will be the case for long… I have been lost in the book “One Last Thing” by Rebecca St. James and Nancy Rue. It is a tough subject, but a really good read. If you don’t know, I have been a huge fan of Rebecca St. James… since forever. I know every song, my walls were covered in RSJ posters, and I thought I was going to pass out from excitement when I got to meet her (twice). I have so much respect for her, and I still love her music… and now I’m enjoying all things RSJ on a new level: fiction. The book is set in the South, and the main character is around my age, and finds out a few weeks before her wedding (in December) that her fiance is addicted to pornography. All those details make it so easy for me to put myself in the main character’s shoes… and it is absolutely heartbreaking. Knowing Rebecca, this is going to be such an awesome story of God’s healing. She has been a huge advocate for purity (bash her songs all you want, but she’s my hero)… and this book advocates for it in a whole new way. This isn’t Rebecca’s first fiction novel, but it’s the first I’ve read… her others are on my “to read” list. What are you reading? Any suggestions?? We have a loooong road trip coming up in May, so I’m trying to gather some new options!
Tonight is date night, and we haven’t decided where we’re going. We will either use a giftcard, or we’ll go to Panera. (As you gathered, I am the indecisive one here.) Our March budget was a little tight, which is fine- we have a lofty goal for paying off some student loans. This morning I’m pretty set on Panera…. so we shall see! Otherwise, we’re hitting Target to do that return and watching some Parks and Rec. We have another date on Saturday, and that one will be a little more adventurous!
Thank you for supporting my blogging hobby. It’s been so fun to be excited about it with you, and to have you proof the posts. I know you’re biased, but it is so encouraging that you think I’m a good writer and that you enjoy my posts. I have loved reading this book, as you know, and I have been filled with thankfulness that you have striven for purity. I am so proud of the man you are, and so thankful our future children will have you as their example.
I’m excited about our date tonight (and glad that I’m not zoned out on allergy medicine this week)! Can’t wait to eat some yummy food, have some good conversations, and snuggle up for some Parks and Rec.