Falling for Fall

Suddenly, Fall is upon us. The last day of Summer was warm and bright, and the first day of Autumn was dark and cold. I thought about wearing a jacket and scarf… didn’t, and spent the whole day regretting it. Monday was Summer weather (talking 80 degrees), and Tuesday it was full-out Fall (50s).


Monday night we finished the movie Winter’s Tale. Weird, weird, weird. No other words. I’ve been struggling to get rest- I’ve been so stressed lately- and finally slept most of the night (but had weird dreams).


All day Tuesday I wanted to be home, in a big hoodie and slippers, baking to my hearts content. In one day I promised 3 separate parties Pumpkin bread. (Oh what have I done?!) The day had a steady stream of work, approving invoices, printing, folding, stuffing, stamping, and sending. (Invoice day is my favorite.) Let’s go back to my Pumpkin bread. I found a recipe last winter, with a pumpkin butter-cream icing. It is perfection. Josh and I made many loaves during the first months of our marriage. It was the perfect companion to our days snowed in!

Josh takes our neighbor grocery shopping every week, and this week he heard about my pumpkin bread. Not only did he buy what I needed to make it, he payed me for the bread. So yes, there’s going to be a baking storm. (And I have to decide what to get. Flannel sheets? Lamp? New shirt? Haven’t decided yet.)


There is just something about Fall. I think it is this: I love being cozy (also, it’s the season I started falling in love with Josh, if we want to be sappy). Everything about Fall and Winter screams COZY. Blankets, boots, sweaters, scarves, fires… how can you not love it? Autumn has arrived, and has wrapped me in a great big hug.

I hope you’re here to stay.


On a random note: last night I dreamed that I made a pan of chicken alfredo lasagna for our friends, the Pollocks, but they were in another state, so I needed to mail it to them…. but I didn’t have money for postage, so I decided to put it on the side of the highway so a trucker could pick it up and mail it for me. Well, when I arrived back at Capernwray Hall (in downtown Chicago- that’s where I was…) I found my brother, Matthew, and told him in a panic that I had to go back and find my lasagna because what was I thinking?!?!?! One – it had to be refrigerated, and two- I didn’t put their address on it! The trucker would eat it all himself!! (Plus I should have used a disposable pan, instead of my nice Pyrex pan with the cover and I said “Josh will KILL ME!”.)

I have no explanation.


Today, I want to bake, then devour some pumpkin bread, drink some hot chocolate, snuggle up with my favorite man, and watch You’ve Got Mail (classic!). I guess, theoretically, that could happen since tonight is date night!!!  I know that I need to do a little baking tonight, as well as tomorrow night, because our oven isn’t very big and I promised our neighbor, Josh, and my sister in law loaves of the legendary Pumpkin bread! 🙂 PLUS there are some apple cookies that I’m dying to make.
The apartment/home search? It goes on. We have an application to the apartment complex we like, but it’s pretty involved and we haven’t had a chance to do it together. Meanwhile, the town-home I love is still available and I want to take a visit!


Dear Josh,

Our favorite season has arrived! Sweet Autumn. I am so excited that THIS Autumn we are married. I get to fill our little home with the aroma of baking, and snuggle up with you. I’m glad you like to take walks, and let me stop and soak in the air, the smells, the beautiful changing leaves. I’m also glad you enjoy the things I cook and bake. (You are SO fun to feed.)

I’m looking forward to a quiet, cozy date night with you.

Love, Mrs. Cornelissen
PS. Thanks for telling me I looked like I belonged in a fashion catalog this morning! The power of the scarf and blazer.

The Shoe Doesn’t Fit

I am in a little bit of a mid-week funk. Nothing exciting is going on… just the daily grind of work, but there are plenty of things I’d like to do (as you guessed, none of the things I want to do are at work). Josh has been studying for first Hebrew exam… and I’ve been working. There is a big event for our customers this week (I am not going- my boss told me I could if I wanted to, but that he’d rather I take his place so he didn’t have to go… that’s when I said thanks but no thanks).

The past couple days at work have been super busy, which has been good, but have left me tired. Also getting up around 6 am… that has left me tired. Josh and I have been walking in the morning, until this morning because I have big old nasty blister on my heel. I need new walking/running shoes, and that is always a struggle for me. I get blisters really easily (enter: topic I don’t want to talk about, but it’s called hyperhidrosis), and stress out about buying shoes since I can’t tell if they will give me blisters… so I’m afraid of wasting money. The one pair of shoes I’ve had that didn’t give me blisters were a pair of Salomon shoes, and they have been since discontinued.

Work and walking have been things I’ve needed to do. Something I have been wanting to do is make creme brulee… basically since I saw it in my Better Homes and Gardens cookbook and realized that IT IS POSSIBLE WITHOUT A BLOW TORCH THINGY. (If it’s in that cookbook, it is possible.) But that requires ramekins… which I don’t have… and reminds me I still haven’t looked to see if my little Pyrex storage set is oven proof, because those could work.

Honestly, I’m struggling to find joy in this day. I’m tired, I miss my husband, and I feel restrained by our self-imposed tight budget (saving for the new place and working on putting money back into savings after buying the car), and I want to cook. Josh and I spent some time this weekend dreaming together. We talked a lot about kids names (train wreck- good thing we have a lot of time to think about it- Josh, October is NOT A NAME!!!!!!), and I talked about what I hope our new place is going to be like, and how nice it will be to have a table, and a place for people to stay with us… dreams. Maybe I need to dream more.

Right now I’m dreaming about fall. I’m excited for fall but this made me burst out laughing: http://www.buzzfeed.com/laraparker/things-all-basic-white-girls-do-during-the-fall#450hxck. IT IS SO TRUE YOU GUYS. Also, it’s not truly Fall until you have to wear sweaters to keep warm. At that point, when I am able to wear my brown boots and tights, I will start making my pumpkin bread and warming my pumpkin candle. If I’m not wearing a sweater and boots, it is not Fall and I don’t need anything pumpkin.

Now I’m finding joy in a future event (Fall!), but not the present. So, an exercise my mom made us do when we complained: 5 things I’m thankful for.

  1. I’m thankful that Josh went to sleep with me last night instead of staying up and doing his Greek homework.
  2. Date nights.
  3. The comfy knock-off Toms I’m wearing today. Oh, sweet comfort.
  4. We HAVE a savings account. (I hear that’s uncommon for people our age.)
  5. Homemade salsa.

Wednesdays are normally date nights, but Josh needs to study for Hebrew… so we’re having leftover pancakes for dinner, and I am spending an evening with my crafts and Netflix. (Josh is taking me out tomorrow night and I’m pretty excited.)

Finally, I usually don’t watch videos at work… but this one I did, and it made me laugh so hard. You’re welcome. http://youtu.be/K4R17EQs2dI



I’m glad we’re a team. If we weren’t completely unified in this whole seminary thing, life would be even harder. I miss you. I know we’re getting into the thick of the semester, and that sometimes you need to spend more time with Greek and Hebrew than me. That’s ok… because I know you guard the time we have together. I’m looking forward to our date night tomorrow, instead of tonight, and I believe 110% that you are going blow this exam out of the water. I am so glad that I don’t have to do the boring or the hard days by myself, and that every work days ends the same: coming home to you.

Love, Mrs. Cornelissen