It’s ok.

The Cornelissens are so desperately thankful for the rain. We are totally over the pollen thing… we would like to be able to breathe, see, walk outside, and even sleep through the night.

I won some small house battles (not arguments with people in my house, but tasks that have seemed to daunt me) this weekend- I got rid of that pile of laundry, I cooked for my family, I hung up pictures (about time), and got rid of clutter. Honestly, this weekend was an emotionally tough one. We have been really praying and wrestling through some future decisions, and I have been struggling.

One of the main things I’m struggling with is feeling like I give, give, give (my family, my growth group, at work) and I don’t have someone pouring back into me. So instead of continuing to feel hopeless and alone, I reached out and asked one of our pastors for some help. I desperately need to meet with someone who has been where I am, and can help me walk through this season. And it’s OK to admit that I need that… since I’ve reached out I’ve been affirmed by multiple parties that it’s GOOD. It’s also humbling.

My crochet project is coming along very nicely! I used up the entire ball of yarn, and learned how to add a new ball (thanks, Google)… and Michael’s has had 50% coupons this week… so I have been stopping by every day to get a $1.70 ball of yarn (we calculated that one ball of yarn occupies me for about 9-10 hours, so that’s entertainment for $0.15-0.18 per hour).

The only other headline for this week is “BREAKING NEW: DEBORAH HAS KEPT HER ROOM CLEAN FOR THREE DAYS IN A ROW.”

Tonight is date night, and I’m looking forward to just spending time with Josh. We have planned an evening of Chili’s, an errand, and some baking, which is fairly relaxed because this weekend is shaping up to be a fairly social one. Josh’s family is going to be stopping in this weekend for a short visit, which we’re really looking forward to! But no matter how much we love anyone visiting, it takes energy, and I think we’re really recognizing the value of resting together. I’m hoping tonight proves to be relaxing as we soak up some quality time together.

 

Dear Josh,

I am so thankful for your encouragement and affirmation over the last couple of weeks. I know it has been really hard- but it is so freeing to know that you’re not going to be frustrated with me for limiting our plans or for having simple plans because it’s the best thing for my own health. There is no way I could be more excited about spending this evening with you. Hopefully this afternoon goes by swiftly.

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Easter 2015

Our visit with Josh’s family was wonderful. I was able to get off work early on Friday, so we arrived in time for dinner! Josh’s grandparents took us out for Mexican food (the way to our hearts), and we were so encouraged by the conversation and time we were able to spend with them. Saturday morning, Josh and I had a breakfast date at Cracker Barrel (the nearest one to our house is about 50 minutes away), played Ticket to Ride, and hung out with family. We celebrated birthdays (my father in law’s and Aaron’s) and enjoyed the best lasagna to ever grace this earth. Seriously, my mother in law nails it every time. (I spent most of my life thinking I didn’t like lasagna UNTIL I had hers!!!)

I must say, my March Madness bracket was not right (I had Kentucky vs Duke, with Kentucky winning) and I’m so happy about it. GO DUKE! While most of the family watched basketball, I learned how to crochet and it is so much fun. Now I keep it at work and I’m practicing when things are super dead (like today) and over my lunch breaks. Maybe it will help me stay occupied on the long drive to Florida! Not only has Aunt Katie now blessed me with a sewing machine and crochet lessons, but may have gotten me addicted to Sally Hanson Miracle Gel nail polish. (But seriously it looks like I just did my nails this morning, and I did them on Sunday… this is unheard of.)

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This is the dress I was so excited about finding!

 

I love visiting friends and family, and I love taking trips… but honestly, being away for a weekend always throws me a little. The weekends are when I breathe, get some things done around the house, and prepare for a new week. Skip the breathing, getting anything done, and preparing… and it leaves me kind of exhausted. Add in a sweet husband who snores like a freight train because of allergy congestion, and the result is a night of 4.5 hours of very interrupted sleep, and a very emotional day to follow. (That was Tuesday). Last night I found myself extra exhausted, and my husband graciously offered to sleep on the couch so I could rest. (The result was 8 hours and 10 minutes of blissfully uninterrupted sleep. Thank you, honey.)

The Disney count is ON. [31 days til Mickey’s House.] The shopping list has been made, the car trip food planned, and the fast passes reserved. Tonight we’re doing some shopping for things on the list- like shorts for me, and pricing things like sunscreen so we can budget for them next month. Tonight is also date night so we are hitting Red Robin.

 

Dear Josh,

I am thankful that we have such loving, caring family on both sides (especially when they love us through leftovers– I had potato casserole and ham for lunch). I’m also thankful that you take such good care of me…. which in this specific case meant sleeping on the couch so I could get some quality rest.
Can’t wait for our date tonight! It has been a long past couple of days, and I’m ready for some time with my honey.

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